It has been an exhausting last couple of weeks transitioning to newborn life, and being a mother of two! I literally feel like I’m nursing alllll dayyyy long, and that I’m slurring my speech from lack of sleep. But in all honesty, I wouldn’t have life any other way right now. Yeah, it’s not perfect and I have my struggles… But I am so incredibly happy. And it feels so good to say that. It has been a while since I have felt confident about expressing my happiness. I think after hearing about so many poor circumstances of those around me… I felt so guilty about feeling happy, and especially insecure about expressing it. When someone would say, “That trip looked so fun!” It became this terrible habit for me to respond with something pessimistic like, “It was fun… BUT it was a lot of hard work and pretty stressful…”. I had convinced myself that I didn’t deserve to feel happy. And that alone, made me quite miserable! Picking out the bad, instead of the good. But then these quotes landed in my lap, at the perfect timing, and it completely switched my perspective on everything.
“We can feel joy regardless of what is happening or not happening in our lives.” and “The joy we feel has little to do with the circumstances of our lives, and everything to do with the focus of our lives.” (You can read the whole talk here.) And then I went to a local conference to support my dear friend Ginger, and she said something so simple that really solidified how I was feeling: “It’s okay to feel happy.”
It all smacked me in the face like BAM! IT’S OKAY TO FEEL HAPPY! Hahaha! Most of you reading this are probably like, “Duhhh…” But honestly, this has been a huge turning point for me… And I couldn’t be happier.
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